My therapist's words about being careful were still ringing in my ears - but those words were overridden by my desire to see him again. I wanted, needed, absolutely had to get to know the man behind those gorgeous blue eyes.
The thought that this might lead to a long term relationship and at some point a sexual one, began to weigh heavily on my mind. I was worried about whether or not this was going to be a possibility, particularly since I was sexually inexperienced - at least on this side of the fence. And what if Eric wanted to marry me at some point - and to have children? What if he found out I couldn't have any - and found out why I couldn't have any? Would he be offended, sickened, outraged if he found out I wasn't a natural born woman? I was afraid he might - but I couldn't stop seeing him because of it. I couldn't stop seeing him because of anything!