...Janice was the expert in getting me to make big changes in little increments so I didn't even realize how much I had changed, how much I was acting as a girl would by the end of it until it was over and too late.
And then of course I had to talk with Janice in front of Cookie like we did at the beach, like I was another girl. And then as Cookie continued to join in, I had to stay in my girlish mode. And then finally Janice told me, that I needed to drop my mannish mannerisms all together around Cookie, that there was no reason to act macho. At that point Janice just expected me to act as feminine as I did on the beach or she would have me wearing my lipstick in the kitchen as a reminder. And so the soft mannerisms, not so much feminine at that time that I had adopted when with Janice at the beach became my general manor of carrying myself when in the kitchen.